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Hey! Are you still with me? Sorry about the looooong hiatus. We were on vacation in Canada and the US and the last couple of weeks have been all about catching up with all the things. And, to top things off my beloved computer gave me the screen of death last week. Thankfully I was able to get everything off of it, and we were able to quickly order another one to come in with a visitor this week. I’ve spent the day downloading the last bits and pieces and am back up and running again, which feels so good!

While visiting my family this summer my Dad was harassing me about the fact that I haven’t been writing much lately. Or in months. I think I was just feeling tapped out in a lot of ways. I had been pushing to get our organizations new website done and launched before our trip and wasn’t into writing much. Now that we’ve got that all taken care of and we’ve had a good vacation, I’m feeling the itch again. I’m also feeling like the blog needs to be freshened up, and since I just spent months working my tail off to get the other site up and running I’ve got some more experience under my belt.

So, expect to see a bit more from me again. I’m not really sure what I’m planning on writing about, but that’s the fun part, right? :)

Happy weekend!

~Leslie

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August 12, 2016 1 Comment

When Life Feels Heavy

Last night I got one of those calls. The ones where the phone rings in the evening when you know most people wouldn’t be calling. I had to run downstairs to get it because my phone was charging, and when I saw the caller ID for my parents my stomach sank. My parents don’t usually call me, I call them because of the cost. When they do call I know it’s important. When they call in the late evening it’s not just to chat. When I called back and got my mom on the line I knew my instincts were right. She was crying and had to tell me that my Granny had passed away yesterday morning.

Moment’s like this hit hard. I’m once again reminded that living here and doing this life that we’re doing comes with it’s own losses. I’ve lost track of how many birthdays I’ve missed. Big ones, like milestones where I would dearly love to celebrate with family. Major anniversaries. Holidays. Changing of seasons. And yes, tragic times. Last year I was so thankful that we were finally able to attend one of the family reunions that happens every few years. It was the first since Chris and I had been married, and I soaked it up like a sponge.

That was the last time I saw my Granny, and last night I was so thankful for those few days with our extended family. Granny was so happy as she watched her kids, grandkids, great grandkids, and nephews and nieces and their families all enjoy each others company. She would light up whenever she saw someone for the first time and had time to enjoy visiting with all of us. We celebrated her 90th birthday and she was in good humor as she always was at birthdays, and had no issue with wearing her birthday hat.

I’m glad that we have those memories and the pictures from the morning that we left. I’m glad my kids had a chance to get to know her and that they remember her and my Grandad. That’s a huge gift to me that I know many don’t get. My grandparents had 6 kids, 16 grandchildren, and 21 great grandchildren – if I counted right. My Grandad passed away about a year and a half ago, so he didn’t meet all the great grands, but Granny knew them all. If that isn’t a legacy, I don’t know what is.

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Granny with 9 of her 16 grandkids last summer. Not all were there, and some just didn’t make it in the picture.

While I’m trying to process some of this the heaviness of Haiti is there too. One of our employees was in a motorcycle accident back in April, and he just came back to work on Monday. We were all so excited. But, he wasn’t back to 100%, and yesterday as he was working his legs went out from under him. Chris took him to the hospital, and now it seems that he had a stroke. His right arm and leg are paralyzed and he needs therapy. And answers. When we went to visit him this morning the information, or lack of it, was maddening. As his wife was relaying what they’d been told, Chris and I just kept looking at each other. There is so little access to good, informative care here. Most often people are given vague descriptions of what maladies they have, a list of meds to take and no preventative education.

Sometimes life is just heavy and hard. I feel worn out today and ready to just sleep. I think I might call it a night early and just take care of my heart and get some rest.

~Leslie

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June 1, 2016 5 Comments

Pre-Weekend Ramblings

I give up! I think I just need to admit that I’m a monthly blogger now. I do think about it, but often in the process of doing other things. I write a lot of posts in my mind, but they don’t ever get put on the screen.

Things have been a big mish mash around here for the past month or so. Chris was away, then he came back. We’ve all been sick in some way or another in the past few weeks, and some of us are still feeling blah. We’ve had a lot of rain, and right now I’m wearing pj pants and enjoying the cool. #thisdoesnthappeninmay  What’s been super amazing is that I keep smelling cool weather smells, like camp fire and trees and it makes me excited for camping on our upcoming vacation!!!

Last week we had a visitor, and there was a big convoluted way of picking him up because a) one of the main roads into Port au Prince has a bridge down, and the bypass they built got washed out from rain, so there have been massive traffic issues, and b) there were protests happening off and on in our area closing the highway down. We decided it would be easier and faster for me and one of our staff to drive to the border between Haiti and the Dominican Republic to meet his bus at the immigration office, rather than trying to get him from Port. It worked out well, and it was faster, and it was a nice drive, so it was a win! #roadtrip

Octavio was here mostly to see what we do and to visit Haiti, but is also a web developer and wanted to help out in any way that he could, so I put him to work helping me get our new website closer to launch. I’ve been working on it in fits and starts and things are getting close, but I needed someone with a tech background to work alongside me and fix the stuff I didn’t know how to do.

It was such a boost to be able to talk face to face with someone about things, rather than through email. And, it was so refreshing to talk to someone who is also a creative. Chris isn’t, so often I feel like he looks at me like I have something on my face when I start talking to him about things like “I want it to look clean and bright and modern…” It was just nice to have someone that was speaking my language, that saw things from the same perspective and who was incredibly encouraging to me to keep pursing things that were a creative outlet. It’s not that Chris and others in my life aren’t, they are, but they’re doing it from someone outside the circle, if that makes any sense.

We worked hard for two solid days and got a lot done and I’m excited about where things are going. The frustration for me is that I’ve had to piece so many things together just by trial and error, so I often feel ill equipped. What I realized as we worked though, is that I have the ability to work fast and think through things and look for solutions in a way that others might not. We would be looking at the same issue, and come at it from two completely different sides, which in the end was good because if one didn’t work, the other could. I honestly think a lot of that has come from living and working in Haiti where we have to make a lot of fast, hard decisions in any given day. There isn’t time to do a lot of deliberating or hemming and hawing. You just have to weigh the facts and decide, then go with it.

After just two days of working side by side with someone that knows what they’re doing, and being able to ask questions and get answers and talk through things, I realized that I really want to know more about coding so that I can not only have more intelligent conversations when it comes to figuring things out, but also so that I can just do things myself. Being in the situation that we’re in, we’re often reliant on volunteers, or we just have to learn a new skill and do it ourselves because there isn’t the budget or means to outsource to someone else. Chris and I have both had to learn a lot in the time that we’ve been here, and I often look at our skill sets and think about how they would fit back into life in Canada or the US. Jack of all trades, master of none?

I want to learn some things though, and maybe start to become a master, or at least have skills that would work on a resume. Not because I have any need or desire to get a side gig, but because it’s nice to learn things and challenge ourselves, and to feel like we’ve got something tangible when we’re done. The truth is, knowing something like coding is the way of the future. We were just talking with Olivia about the fact that both her and her brother should learn coding as young as possible, because so much of the future of industry is going to rely on it, no matter what sector you end up getting a job in. Coders can work wherever they want. Case in point, my sister-in-law just finished coding school a couple weeks ago, and had three internship offers in the past week. She can choose whichever one she wants.

So, as I was laying around feeling nauseous today (yes, I’m one of the “still sicks” in our house) I started looking at an email link that I had for the Boing Boing store. Boing Boing is a tech website that Chris likes to read. Last fall he sent me a link for some online courses in WordPress that they were offering and huge discounts. I bought one and got on the mailing list. Today I started looking at some of their newest offerings and realized they had a ton of great courses on web development, all for less than $60.

This led me down a rabbit trail that resulted in me buying a course, and then getting lost in the Udemy website, who was hosting the course. If you have an internet connection and any kind of desire for continuing education, you need to go and check it out. I’m serious. They have courses for all areas of life. Most of them are about $20-40 and you get a lot of video instruction with that. The course I got came with not only hours and hours of video instruction, but also one year of free web hosting so that you actually have a platform to practice on. Udemy also has a ton of FREE courses, and they’re not lame.

Today I literally soaked things up and enjoyed my sick day. Things that literally felt like Greek to me before are starting to make sense and I’m excited about learning how to understand how everything web related comes together. It’s like the pieces are connecting in my brain. It’s amazing!

If you need me, I’ll be learning stuff :)

~Leslie

PS – Seriously, go check it out. You could be well on your way to learning a new language or trigonometry (our kids are so taking some of these classes when they get older!) or how to bake sour dough bread (for real).

 

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I’m Leslie. I started my blog back in 2005 when I was fresh off the plane in Haiti. I lived in Haiti for over 17 years as a missionary, wife, and eventually mom. My husband and I ran Clean Water for Haiti together, day in and day out. We carved out a life we loved doing something important to us. Sadly, in the fall of 2022 we had to make the difficult decision to leave Haiti because of the insecurity. We’re now settling into life in the US. I’m thankful that I get to continue my work with CWH as the Executive Director for Canada and the US.

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